join me on a journey to spiritual health
It took a long time for me to get to where I am now—a lot of zigging when I could have been zagging. But I’ve learned that there are no mistakes in life.
Wherever we find ourselves in life, there are clues from the Universe showing us where we need to focus our love on healing the wounds and trauma of our past. We only need to slow down and listen.
Turning trauma into transformation
I spent most of my life running from my trauma instead of processing it. My way of running from my past was to create drama in my present. By creating drama, I kept recreating my past. I’ve learned that whatever you don’t process will keep cropping up in different ways. These could be relationships in our jobs, friends, significant others, and especially the relationship with our own body. Emotion is stored as energy in the body. And If you’ve ever heard the saying that unexpressed emotion can lead to illness - believe it.
Like so many people, my journey began with a chaotic upbringing filled with uncertainty and trauma. The enormous disservice a chaotic upbringing does is separate us from our inner guidance. Of the responses to fear: fight, flight, or fawn; I chose to fawn as my survival skill. I was the mediator, the translator, the mindreader of my family. Using all my energy to anticipate, intercept, and prevent any event would spill over into anger and chaos.
When you’re feeling lost, remember that all roads lead back to your heart. Wherever you find yourself, you’re on the right track.
When you're feeling lost, remember that all roads lead back to your heart. Wherever you find yourself, you're on the right track.
Usually reacted from my primitive reptilian brain instead of learning to respond with my whole brain
Having panic attacks but not knowing what they were
Feeling that something was wrong, but was told nothing was wrong, resulting in confusion about what was real.
Being on high alert with an overactive nervous system that was always on guard
What trauma looked like growing up in a chaotic household:
Often In a state of fight/flight/fear/freeze/or fawn while feeling unprotected, vulnerable, and abandoned
Became hypersensitive to people's nuanced behavior as a survival tactic
Being immunosuppressed for the rest of my life
Having a kidney transplant
Being on emergency dialysis for a year
Being so out of touch with my physcial body that I had a near-death experience with kidney failure
Dissasociating when I perceived a fearful event which lead to physical danger
Pysical symptoms of anxiety like rapid heart beat and shallow breathing which ehanced feelings of anxiety
Being diagnosed with anxiety/depression
Physical symptoms caused by my trauma avoidance and loss of connection with my Inner Guide:
"After living through so many painful emotions, I'm ready to be Happy."
And I replied:
"After everything you've been through, you deserve to be angry. So why aren't you?"
A friend of mine asked:
Unaware
Critical
anxiety/
depression
Marriage on the rocks
Struggling with infertility
Immuno-suppressed
Depressed & Cynical
Self-Aware
Curious Compassion
In Remission
Marriage is
a Journey
Adopted My Son
Managing my Condition
Living in a state of Gratitude
Unaware
Critical
Anxiety/depression diagnosis
Marriage on the rocks
Struggling with infertility
Immunosuppressed
Depressed & Cynical
when I turned my trauma into tranformation
What Changed
For 10 years I was a vocalist in a Jazz Band.
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Dancing is my number one favorite thing to do. I can be seen dancing in the aisles of the grocery store if the music moves me.
I’m a lifelong learner and might be addicted to getting Certificates. As of today, I have Certificates in:
Pilates, Creative Writing, Pollinator Gardening, Holistic Health Coach, Hormone Health Coach, Gut Health Coach, Spiritual Coach, Akashic Reader Certificate, and Mediumship Certificate...more to come.
My husband is now 5 years sober and we’re still married. It’s a journey that I’m glad I stayed on.
my happy place!
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I decided to dig up our front lawn and plant native flowers for bees, birds, and butterflies. I thought it would take 2 weeks but years later I’m still working on it.
I wasn’t able to conceive a child, I tried infertility treatments which were a nightmare. I turned to adoption and now have a son I love more than air. Adopting was one of the best decisions of my life.
My son and I go to movies together and I have seen every Marvel movie at least once.
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I never met an animal I didn’t love..
I am the ‘Fun Aunt” to 21 nieces and nephews.
I'm Also Known For:
Besides the serious business of self-healing
coffee
BEACH
EARLY BIRD
summer
POPCORN
cake
films
TEA
mountains
night owl
winter
CHOCOLATE
popsicles
movies
Where I stand on the super important stuff... Agree / disagree?
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My big wake-up call was my near-death health crisis. I was having chest pains, which I’ve never had. I called my GP, and she immediately told me to go to the ER.
I Lost my Kidneys but I
Found my Heart
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THE REVIEWS
"I can't recommend Barbara enough. The work she does is life-changing. She's pretty funny too."
so they say:
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"I was surprised by how natural it was when we slipped into my Mediumship Reading. She gives it during an Akashic Coaching session. I totally see what she means by, “already being in loving energy”. It was very moving for me. I initially had my doubts, like, this is crazy. But Barbara imagined my mother wearing a green dress with pearls and my mother always wore her pearls. The things Barbara channeled were totally what my mom would say. I really felt her presence and I knew it was real. I would recommend this reading to anyone who grieves the loss of someone they love."
"I am hooked on Barbara's coaching. It has brought me so much insight and has given me actual tools that I use to manage my anxiety when I get triggered."
kayla found tools to manage her anxiety
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"I’ve been in therapy for years and still had no tools on how to manage my emotional turmoil. On my first session with Barbara, we started talking and she was able to pinpoint some trauma that I didn’t even know was still percolating. She taught me a grounding exercise that I can do myself.
I’ve visited past memories that I didn’t think I’d be able to face. But, with Barbara’s guidance, I have been able to heal some deep wounds and restore a part of myself that was long buried. I can’t recommend Barbara enough. The work she does is life-changing. She’s pretty funny too."
“Each session has been healing beyond words, it’s been transformational.”
sarah healed deep wounds from the past
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"My session with Barbara was wonderful. She was able to tap into some issues I was unable to express, which was healing in itself. Her insights and guided visualizations stayed with me long after our session and the message of compassion I received has helped me deal with some difficult situations. She is truly a gifted and illuminating intuitive coach."
“She was able to tap into some issues I was unable to express, which was healing in itself.”
andrea found new ways of tackling difficult situations
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"Within the first 10 minutes of my session, after deeply listening to what I wanted help with, like a laser beam, Barbara intuited what was really going on with me. I instantly felt the truth of her words and we spent the rest of the session healing the patterns that were holding my issue stuck in place. It was powerful! By the end, I felt clear, light, and free. Barbara is a gifted, heart-centered, and compassionate spiritual counselor. Thank you Barbara for facilitating a pivotal transformation for me, you are a blessing!"
“It was powerful! By the end, I felt clear, light, and free.”
Shweta's coaching session began a pivotal transformation
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"I was lucky enough to experience the soulful guidance and comforting words shared in a magical and unforgettable session. Connecting to meaning-filled messages to help me along my journey as a grief guide, left me feeling more on purpose than I could have imagined. During our session, Barbara connected with my beloved mother, who has been gone since 1993. I felt an overwhelming calm and quiet in the session. Along with some good laughs and a grin the entire time, Barbara’s skill cannot be put into words - it is transformative. Like a warm blanket of knowing and wisdom that allowed me to feel like I am right where I need to be, with a future ahead that burns bright with healing light. All of the messages that were brought forward are forever etched on my heart."
“It was a deeply peaceful and profound experience. I felt an overwhelming calm and quiet in the session.”
barri was able to connect with her beloved mother
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"Thank you for confirming so many things for me. From the connections with my guides, and ways forward with family, and of course our intrinsic and wonderful time together. Your visualizations of my dearly departed and what they were wearing and doing were really touching.
I took the rest of the day off afterward, and just relished in the joy of everything. I am so grateful.
You truly have a gift. It is crystal clear how your gifts will help so many people heal and know that the divine works in so many imaginative ways."
“Beginning to thank my pain for alerting me to take time to honor the child inside me and helping her heal from all the trauma will be a paramount step in my healing.”
tammy discovered a new way of looking at her pain
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"Thank you Barbara, for being a fun, open, understanding guiding light in people's lives. You have a special way of comforting the soul and helping us find our own path in ways we've never explored before. "
